It’s a beautiful Sunday afternoon. I started out my day by first being thankful that I have five beautiful, healthy, and smart children. The boys are with their father and it would just be me and the girls. I know that I can’t lay around so I get up trying to figure out what I’m going to do with my girls. I’m more than blessed to be their mom!
The weather was what I would like to call a nice eighty-seven degrees, but we all know in Arkansas that means it felt like one-hundred seven degrees. Hot summers happen to be about the only thing offered in the area of Arkansas that we live so we opted to go to the park. It’s a nice little park with a small playground of swings, slides, and jungle gyms. It also has a very nice pond with ducks and fish.
Being a plus-size mom, going to the park isn’t always ideal. It makes you question “what should I wear?” “Is it worth the looks if I wear shorts and a sleeve-less shirt?” “Should I wear pants instead of shorts so that my thighs aren’t as visible?” You get strange looks by people because you’re not what they see as the ideal size. You can’t fit into the swings when your little girls are asking for you to swing with them. You try anyway and get terrible looks.
I got my girls dressed into their sleeve-less shirts and shorts and then for myself, I put on my shorts & a t-shirt. Why should I have to wear pants so that I don’t get a bad look because my thighs aren’t the same size as someone else’s? When we got to the park, and I was asked to swing with the girls. At first I told them no because I knew I couldn’t fit into a swing comfortably, but I would happily push them. It didn’t take me long to change my mind when I could see the disappointment on their precious faces. They don’t understand why mom is the size she is, and why she can’t fit comfortably into the swing. I decided that I was not going to let my size hold me back! I got right up and into the free swing next to my girls. Was it comfortable? No, it wasn’t comfortable… as matter of fact, I am pretty sure that I still have marks on my hips from the swing pinching me, but my girls were happy and that’s what mattered most to me. The girls and I climbed on the jungle gym, and also took a stroll or two across the monkey bars. Did I get strange looks by people passing by? Of course I did! But my girls had the biggest, brightest smiles on their faces! They were absolutely beaming! For once, their mom did not let her size hold her back from doing an activity with the them. We got strange looks but we continued smiling and laughing and making the BEST of OUR day. These are times that we will never get back, and we all know tomorrow is not promised to any of us. I am happy to know that in the years to come, my children will be able to look back and say that their mom did not let the fact that she is plus-sized stop her from playing right along with them at the park.